Thursday, June 16, 2011

I hold on because I have to

God knows I can't really do this teaching stuff. I don't have enough knowledge to lead my children to great heights of learning, to the depths of wisdom. In talking with my friend, Sandy, this evening I likened the feeling to the desperation of being at sea without a boat. I can't touch bottom, I can't even see the sides. But because I have seen God's work in my life I can trust him to hold me up even as I see him pulling me deeper out. My reaction is to grab for the scrap of wood or broken raft floating by so that I don't sink. But I will sink eventually with those choices. I desperately do not want to be out of the water on a broken raft when God wants me in the water trusting him. I need to watch him, keep my eyes on him, hang on to his rope. It will never break.

Two people today have told me this is good to hear. One was Sandy. One was me. Sometimes I just need to put my thoughts and feelings into words. Thanks Sandy for helping me do that.

3 comments:

Salsa with Cilantro said...

This was good to read, oh floating one (in more ways than one!) xxoo

los cinco nomads said...

Yes, I didn't think the idea of being in the water was a literal idea. But I'm getting a new kitchen faucet this evening. Maybe a new floor soon?

Salsa with Cilantro said...

:)